ngayon ko lang totally naprove that i can express my ideas in writing best when i'm not in a good mood. i was totally stressed kanina and the creative juices started to run like i can see them dripping in front of me. the sad thing though is i can't let them stop that i had to run after them now.

not that i write very well but just the same being very modest about it is as worse as bragging.
yes, i write better than good but i only have my self and family to prove that. i also won a literary contest in elementary and in college so that i think is enough to mark the point. i can write as good.

ayun, the past few weeks had been a blurr, some wind caused my hair to dry but i somehow managed to try comb them once in a while.just read through the strands.

there were work changes but as my lead said "there are lots of changes but all of them good". so i won't brood about the hang ups i'm done with that. i'll just talk about the better things that happened to me in the process.

my first work has made a different rhoda altogether. she now tries to speak, and has learnt that chuckling after every sentence is not very formal although she still does it when she fails to reprimand herself. using her wits and always trying to put them together is best than just talking her brain. she learned that there are different kinds of people in the square world they call office and that it requires care to know each of them for good rapport. and most she learned that emotion is not a very good investment as she loses more than what she gains. she'd rather make it in the margins and feel at the least. and most importantly she learned the truth about the white collar man's belly.

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christmas is 10 days away and i still have around 20 gifts more to buy. slashing the list with best buys is hard but through it i started to warm and the ideas came crashing in. i got a 48 pieces crayola for a boy inaanak, a lunchbox for a girl, a can opener for a boy friend (coz he always borrows ours), a chocolate candy for the water delivery boy - a coloring book, the usual clothes and colognes. who said that giving is hard? it pays more than what you let go. you can't buy the fulfillment you get when you see your list getting done no matter how simple or cheap your gifts are. and that i think should make my christmas this year. slowly living what made me who i am now.

you see, it's not only my giver's money but the value they indirectly taught me - of being selfless and just giving and giving and giving. it's true, when you give it comes back to you double fold. there's no formula to exactly calculate how much is double but there are some things in this life that only sums up to happiness. if you already felt happy, then you know that it went back to you double fold.

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oops, gtg!