these days waves are hitting my boat and i am very tempted to imagine that i am just somewhere in the caribbean enjoying my own self paced cruise. the buzzer sounds - back to reality.
i have faced this same monitor for a year and a half already and the many days i had to boot everyday saw me through different kind of moods emoticons are very accurate of mimicking.
One day I come all made up – hitting the keys as gentle as the mood I am in. the other day I look at it with disgust – already counting in mind the hours my wrists will strain. It never mattered – whatever I am feeling I should get up, dress up, and show up.
Get a life! A friend once advised. She dissected my social meter and it perfectly described the current state it is in – boring.
But have you tried doing something very out of your comfort zone it makes you uneasy? Like a fish out of the water wanting to just dive back in even when it means just swimming in the same bowl forever? That is boring. But safe. It keeps you from those pain necessary when socializing – discrimination, self-pity, what-else-is-there-to-compare-with mentality. Other than that, I’m fine going out to get a life.
---- patalastas -----
each day i practically always wake up at 6:45, fix my bed, put on my slippers, go across the living room and flip the switch on. Then i grab my towel,heat up a cup for coffee, then go take a bath. I hang the towel on the rack, prepare the shampoo, conditioner, bath soap, and femme wash and do my thing. paglabas ko titimplahin na ang kape, kukuha ng tatlong pirasong loaf bread at isang saging. at about 8:20 makikita mo na ako palabas ng bahay at sasakay na ng kulay green na tricycle. Pagdating sa Philcoa sasakay na ng shuttle na iikot sa Tandang Sora at hihinto right in front of our building. Then bababa ako sasakay ng elevator papuntang fourth floor. bubulaga sa akin si kuya guard na gupit lang ang nagbabago at isaswipe ko ang aking badge, liliko pakaliwa at didiretso sa restroom. pagkatapos maglalakad na sa hallway papunta sa aking workstation. magbubukas ng computer, uupo, ilalapag ang bag, kukuhanin ang jaket at isasampay sa upuan, maglalabas ng gamit, at sisimulan na ang trabaho. sino'ng maysabing routinary ang buhay ko? Gusto mong malaman kung paano ko inuubos ang weekends ko?
----- balik sa programa -----
Which poses me the same question over and over - does my social meter need fixing?
