Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Dynomite


In this wee hour of the morning i am awake, busily busting those eggs the dyno is endlessly throwing. i have done the hard stomped applying every strategy of organizing those colors to make them explode. sandali, nahihirapan ako magenglish.

pinili ko kasi agad ung hard.walang thrill pag madali lang. ayon, nd ko matapos tapos. dyno always outwits me find every odd colored balls to make me lose.

aun, lumipat ako sa endless puzzle mode. ang siste, nandun si asar na wriley na lagi ding me dalang ibang kulay ng bola na isasalaksak ko sa kung saan at bubuo ng tatlong magkakalapit na kulay para sumabog sila. in the end it will always crush me because it is endless.

i knew beforehand that i'll lose. coz it's designed to defeat me. pero sige pa din ako. alam ko kasi kahit gano karaming kulay ng bola ang ibato nya sa akin magagawan ko ng paraan para ayusin. patibayan lang ng loob na alam mong nandyan na pero susuungin mo pa rin. gusto mong manalo pero hindi palaging ayon sa standard ng laro.

minsan sa sarili mo, alam mong hindi ka naglalaro para talunin si dyno kundi para maipanalo mo ang parte ng sarili mong gustong may mapatunayan.

sa dulo naapakan ka man ng malaking paa ni dyno tatanungin ka pa rin -

do you want to return to the game?

Monday, July 18, 2011

the day that i lost her

i'm still in the process of picking up the pieces, trying to be stable after what happened.

I lost my baby last friday and things went a little too hazier from that time on.

I don't know how else life will get kinder, but i know i am stronger, and some sunrises after i'll be back with that same old smile again.

before that happens i'll walk limping, cry heavily, and blame myself for the things that could have been if i have only.

one thing i have in mind though, is how lonelier this could be if there are no people i can run to, that technically i am poor for, i only have people i have hurt but knew i loved.

i am still very incoherent-still trying to make sense out of this whole thing that happened unexpectedly.

when i post in another i'll tell you everything in that sweet but yet too fast journey i had with my daughter.